under the floor....

At the school, i had to stay after to get help on my homework in English, i was waiting for Hudson to get back from coping something then i seen something weird on the floor, it was raised up a bit. i walked over to it and i tried picking it up, and it opened. i stopped and looked around and checked the door to see if hudson was back yet, i wanted to know what it was and what was down there. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and turned my flashlight on, i looked around one last time before going down the door in the floor. it was really dark and it smelled really weird. it was just a hall and it came to a dead end, but there was doors, almost like how a hotel is. I was really starting to get freaked out, but i really wanted to know what as down there so i tried opening all of the doors. it was locked, it tried another one it was locked as well i tried opening every door  in the hall until one at the end finally open, i poked my head inside to see what was in there, it was an empty room with a very stained carpet, i couldnt tell what stained the carpet, but it freaked me out really bad, i ran out of there as fast as i could and shut the door when i was out, as i shut the door hudson seen the scared look on my face and asked me what was wrong, i didnt want to tell her so i just said nothing, i swore i would never tell anyone about that room, i swore to myself because who knows what happens down there...

Parade

Well, for me i think i would like to have some of the bands that i listen to be there and preform during it. I would like a HUGE panda balloon  in the middle of the parade and pandas to be in the parade for all the little kids to see and pet! I would want to be in the parade and have maybe three people with me on a float with a band we all like and agree on. so we can like meet them and hang out with them for a while then after we could go and hang out with them and go eat some food or something.

Roses and Thorns

This week has been pretty rough but thats okay.. I have had some really good conversations with people thats helped me out a lot. My step dad had surgery on Tuesday and its been really stressful dealing with all the kids in the house, cleaning up after a baby and my other siblings who cant seem to clean up after themselves, making dinner for me, my sister Hailee, my sister KimberLee, my dad, my brother Hunter, my brother Gage, myself and my mother since she works third shift she sleeps until 8 so she gets enough sleep. But on Wednesday my baby sister KimberLee turned two and it was really great to see her laughing and eating her cake.. which she shoved in my face that was fun. This week has been nothing but stress for me, but thats okay because i get to have Kacy stay the night and well we do nothing but talk and talk for hours when she stays the night.

Can you read my mind..?

If i could read one persons mind for the next 24 hours i think i would want to read my dads mind, not my step dad, my dad. With the things he has been doing and the way he has been acting, i would like to know why, and what his reason is. After he kicked me out last year ive been wondering why and stuff like that and i sorta have a reason but its why his girlfriend wanted me out of her house over things i was accused of, but i would want to read his mind to know why he wont get a hotel room or something like that every other weekend so he can see his kid, I mean why wouldn't he. I want to know if  i ever cross his mind at least once or twice a day. And i want to know if he really believes what i am being accused of. ive accepted the fact that the man who adopted me no longer wants to be a father to me anymore, i just want to know why more than anything.

3 wishes

If i had three wishes, and none i could use for myself, I would wish for my dad to finally open up a garage like he has wanted to for such a long time. He always talks about how he is going to do it now that he has some space. He always says that its a good way to make money, doing something he loves doing more than anything. I would wish for my sister ( later on down the road ) get a full scholarship to the University of Michigan, the college she has always wanted to go to. We never really understood why she wants to go so far away, and why Michigan of all places. I dont know why she wants that, but she does.. a lot. So that is how i would use my second wish. For my third wish... I would wish for my family all to travel to Texas to see my older sister, Faith, and her baby. I havent seen my older sister in 4-5 years. I miss her and KimberLee and Gage (my brother and sister we recently adopted) have never met her, and  I think that it would be good for them to meet them.

525,600 minutes

Well, 2015 has been a year I will never forget. This year alone I lost a close friend, which was really hard for me to cope with. I planned a candle light vigil at the high school for him, and bought 140 balloons, took them to CVS and had them filled with helium, donated all the money I had to his mother, that day I will never forget because that day I found out I had more of a support system than I thought I did.  I moved to a new town for the first time ever which honestly was really good for me. When I moved I met a lot of new people and met my best friend. My family adopted two amazing little kids, who have been great siblings for me and have given me more of a reason to keep myself going. I turned 16 this year and my mother got me a bouncy house, yes she seriously  rented a bouncy house for my birthday I was upset because my friend from eureka couldn't make it so she said ill rent you a bouncy house, I thought she was joking so i said okay. well two days later there was a bouncy house up in my front yard. Had so many kids over i couldn't even count them all, we had no idea who half of them were but they were there and they were having a ton of fun, and I was perfectly okay with that. This year has had more ups and downs than any other year of my life, it wasn't easy, at all but it opened my eyes and made me a more caring person. 

Snow..

The coolest thing ive built in the snow in a bunch of long tunnels with my older cousin Tyler. We were in the trailer park in eureka and they plowed the snow up along the side of the roads and everything. the snow at the time went up to my stomach so we grabbed shovels and dug all the way threw the snow all around the trailer park. And there was a lot of snow right next to my aunts trailer so we bulit a little room and had chairs in there. I thought i was the coolest person ever. If there was a bunch of snow coming i honestly would have my cousin come over before it came and then after we could build a bunch of stuff like we use to when we were little, and honestly im really glad i have younger siblings so i have an excuse to play in the snow like a child. i hate how cold snow is other than that i would play in the snow all day, but i really really hate the cold.