under the floor....

At the school, i had to stay after to get help on my homework in English, i was waiting for Hudson to get back from coping something then i seen something weird on the floor, it was raised up a bit. i walked over to it and i tried picking it up, and it opened. i stopped and looked around and checked the door to see if hudson was back yet, i wanted to know what it was and what was down there. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and turned my flashlight on, i looked around one last time before going down the door in the floor. it was really dark and it smelled really weird. it was just a hall and it came to a dead end, but there was doors, almost like how a hotel is. I was really starting to get freaked out, but i really wanted to know what as down there so i tried opening all of the doors. it was locked, it tried another one it was locked as well i tried opening every door  in the hall until one at the end finally open, i poked my head inside to see what was in there, it was an empty room with a very stained carpet, i couldnt tell what stained the carpet, but it freaked me out really bad, i ran out of there as fast as i could and shut the door when i was out, as i shut the door hudson seen the scared look on my face and asked me what was wrong, i didnt want to tell her so i just said nothing, i swore i would never tell anyone about that room, i swore to myself because who knows what happens down there...

Parade

Well, for me i think i would like to have some of the bands that i listen to be there and preform during it. I would like a HUGE panda balloon  in the middle of the parade and pandas to be in the parade for all the little kids to see and pet! I would want to be in the parade and have maybe three people with me on a float with a band we all like and agree on. so we can like meet them and hang out with them for a while then after we could go and hang out with them and go eat some food or something.

Roses and Thorns

This week has been pretty rough but thats okay.. I have had some really good conversations with people thats helped me out a lot. My step dad had surgery on Tuesday and its been really stressful dealing with all the kids in the house, cleaning up after a baby and my other siblings who cant seem to clean up after themselves, making dinner for me, my sister Hailee, my sister KimberLee, my dad, my brother Hunter, my brother Gage, myself and my mother since she works third shift she sleeps until 8 so she gets enough sleep. But on Wednesday my baby sister KimberLee turned two and it was really great to see her laughing and eating her cake.. which she shoved in my face that was fun. This week has been nothing but stress for me, but thats okay because i get to have Kacy stay the night and well we do nothing but talk and talk for hours when she stays the night.

Can you read my mind..?

If i could read one persons mind for the next 24 hours i think i would want to read my dads mind, not my step dad, my dad. With the things he has been doing and the way he has been acting, i would like to know why, and what his reason is. After he kicked me out last year ive been wondering why and stuff like that and i sorta have a reason but its why his girlfriend wanted me out of her house over things i was accused of, but i would want to read his mind to know why he wont get a hotel room or something like that every other weekend so he can see his kid, I mean why wouldn't he. I want to know if  i ever cross his mind at least once or twice a day. And i want to know if he really believes what i am being accused of. ive accepted the fact that the man who adopted me no longer wants to be a father to me anymore, i just want to know why more than anything.

3 wishes

If i had three wishes, and none i could use for myself, I would wish for my dad to finally open up a garage like he has wanted to for such a long time. He always talks about how he is going to do it now that he has some space. He always says that its a good way to make money, doing something he loves doing more than anything. I would wish for my sister ( later on down the road ) get a full scholarship to the University of Michigan, the college she has always wanted to go to. We never really understood why she wants to go so far away, and why Michigan of all places. I dont know why she wants that, but she does.. a lot. So that is how i would use my second wish. For my third wish... I would wish for my family all to travel to Texas to see my older sister, Faith, and her baby. I havent seen my older sister in 4-5 years. I miss her and KimberLee and Gage (my brother and sister we recently adopted) have never met her, and  I think that it would be good for them to meet them.

525,600 minutes

Well, 2015 has been a year I will never forget. This year alone I lost a close friend, which was really hard for me to cope with. I planned a candle light vigil at the high school for him, and bought 140 balloons, took them to CVS and had them filled with helium, donated all the money I had to his mother, that day I will never forget because that day I found out I had more of a support system than I thought I did.  I moved to a new town for the first time ever which honestly was really good for me. When I moved I met a lot of new people and met my best friend. My family adopted two amazing little kids, who have been great siblings for me and have given me more of a reason to keep myself going. I turned 16 this year and my mother got me a bouncy house, yes she seriously  rented a bouncy house for my birthday I was upset because my friend from eureka couldn't make it so she said ill rent you a bouncy house, I thought she was joking so i said okay. well two days later there was a bouncy house up in my front yard. Had so many kids over i couldn't even count them all, we had no idea who half of them were but they were there and they were having a ton of fun, and I was perfectly okay with that. This year has had more ups and downs than any other year of my life, it wasn't easy, at all but it opened my eyes and made me a more caring person. 

Snow..

The coolest thing ive built in the snow in a bunch of long tunnels with my older cousin Tyler. We were in the trailer park in eureka and they plowed the snow up along the side of the roads and everything. the snow at the time went up to my stomach so we grabbed shovels and dug all the way threw the snow all around the trailer park. And there was a lot of snow right next to my aunts trailer so we bulit a little room and had chairs in there. I thought i was the coolest person ever. If there was a bunch of snow coming i honestly would have my cousin come over before it came and then after we could build a bunch of stuff like we use to when we were little, and honestly im really glad i have younger siblings so i have an excuse to play in the snow like a child. i hate how cold snow is other than that i would play in the snow all day, but i really really hate the cold.

Ghost..

When I'm a ghost I will be a hitch hiking ghost, I'll go to every house I've ever lived in and go back and forth between those 9 houses and just scare who ever is living there. I mean I'm pretty sure the people living there wouldn't be to freaked out and wouldn't think anything of it.. at least for a while they wouldn't. After a while of me moving small things and making noises at night, I'd start doing it while they are awake and really freak them out. I'd start making louder noises and like shut lights off all the time. For no reason really just to scare people, because that what I like doing is scaring people. So yeah that's what I would do.

Thinking of my teachers when they were in high school kind of cracks me up. I mean, if you think about it. No one really thinks about it.. I could see most of my teachers as smart and involved in things. I mean pretty much the total opposite if me. Involved in things, having a lot of friends. Just seems to be total opposite of me. I mean think about it, would they a have wanted to be a teacher when they were my age? Did they want to be something different? it would be a little strange to see them all stressing over a college, stressing over a homework assignment, stressing over a test even. I mean I bet they all were amazing kids in school. I bet they were all so well liked

Zombies...

Well my survival plan would be to get to my cousin, as soon as i can. My cousin would know what to do. My mother would not survive long, but the rest of my family probably would make it. I would try to convince my step dad to come with me but he would probably do the same thing as my cousin would. Get in the cars, and drive to either the smallest town, or way out in the country away from all towns and people, find an old house out there and try to survive there. In my family most of the people are strong, and i would feel safe knowing they are looking out for me. My biggest fear would be my baby sister crying, shes a very very loud crier. And that would not be very helpful at all. My little sister would be able to deal with things very well honestly, she knows how to hunt and shes very very smart. My dad well i really do not know how he would act, i think he would try to protect everyone even if he knows he can not do so. My little brother, Hunter, he would be helpful in a few ways he knows how to shoot a bow and arrow and he has very very good aim. My little brother, Gage, well I think he would be to young to help out a lot. My family honestly wouldn't last that long in my mind. We would all die. Very fast.

Teenagers.

So many people think that teenagers are such bad kids, and so many people think that we are lazy, and that we a do drugs or smoke or something. But trust is not all of us do that. Some of us might but no way do we all. And being lazy? Not really again. Some of us are lazy but not all of us are. Some of us have jobs, some of us are in charge of getting the house clean and sometimes we do not get any help from anyone at all. And we don't all have sex all the time. Not all of us are what people think we are. No one pays attention to the good that we do. Sometimes we spend time trying to help little kids. Sometimes we work harder than some adults, not all adults, some. You know we aren't just some stuck up brats that get everything handed to us. We do have to work for things. And yes our parents give us things but that's what a parent does. They get their children the things they need. I know that in my house, i have to work hard for what i want. If I want new clothes, I have to clean my entire house(my house is not small by any means) and I have to do the laundry for my parents to even take me to get clothes. It's not all handed to me. It's never just been handed to me. Nothing has really.

Wheres Waldo??

Well no one really knows where Waldo is, no one really knows who he is. Well, here is his story. Waldo lived in a town where no one really liked him, everyone hated him but his parents. He was picked on for his favorite shirt he wore all the time, a red and white stripped sweater. He decided to run away one day to get away from everything, he wanted to leave so he did not have to deal with people anymore. He knew his parents would miss him but he had to leave for his own good. is parents freaked out and called the police. they looked for such a long time for him, but he cops finally gave up looking for him. His parents were so angry but hey never gave up. They decided to make a book asking "Wheres Waldo?" to see if little kids could find him. they put his favorite sweater on the book, thinking since that was the only shirt he took with him, he would still be wearing it, hoping they would still be wearing it. Eventually, his parents found him, ten years later thanks to some little kid who yelled at his mother, "Mommy i found Waldo!!" the little boys mother just happened to know the family really well.. Waldo was finally found, but the books were so well liked they never took them off the shelves, they just let little kids keep finding their son.

Home is where the heart is

Home for me is in Eureka not in a specific house but more of the town itself. When i lived in Eureka we moved every two years to a different house, so having a house for home isnt something that i know really. In eureka i felt safe and loved there. it was the place i called home. and i stayed in every part of that town. I had places i could go, i knew everyone. people cared about me there i knew it. once i moved here i didnt think i could ever call this place home, but as time goes by im starting to see this place as home. You know nets hard to admit but it's true. You guys have been so great when i moved and so nice to me you're making it possible for me to become comfortable. So hopefully I will be able to call this place home.

I personally wouldn't even pick the book up. the book for me would one bring back some things that i do not want to remember or even think about, it would make me think of to many things that i could have changed. and yes skipping to the end is always an option but i know that depending on what it is, i would try to change it, or i would try to hard to make it the same way possible. reading the book would make things way to complicated. plus finding out how and when you'll die doesn't seem that nice to me, living being terrified of going near or toward the thing. reading some things woudnt be so bad, but honestly if i were to read it i would skip way ahead past this part of my life, i would skip to when i was older. i would want to read the good things about my life but none of the bad,.

School.

School this year is okay. Things haven't been bad, but again they haven't been super wonderful either. I'm honestly glad to be back in school because I get to see the few people im actually friends with, and not sit around and do anything all day. Classes haven't been to hard, Anatomy and Physiology has been my hardest class since school started. This year all I hope to accomplish is making myself proud of what I've done and what I've accomplished and learned. This year will definitely be interesting, it being my first full year here at this school, and I'm kind of expected to see how I'll do.